Late night McD!!! It's been so long since we last did that...I'm only bringing this up because the Indians (no racism intended), just ordered McD Delivery. At 12.30 am. So, I'm kinda feasting on fries right now. Okayy..Not so much feasting as nipping fires being offered :) I don't exactly want to be fat, you know. Especially with Chinese New Year just around the corner :DDDD
I just realized that since we've been back, we haven't exactly been hanging out by the pool (Yes! Not once yet!) Emo...no karaoke sessions yet.
Instead, we've been too caught up with studies (And KI IS!!!) I think I'm giving the juniors a bad impression. Lol...That their seniors are muggers. Wth..And they all seem smarter and more knowledgable than us when we first came! Or maybe it's just me.
Listening to Big Bang's Haru Haru right now..Go listen to this!!!
Math consultation tomorrow. 10am...Sienz..But I must go for my own good! Except that I have no idea what I'm gonna ask her. I mean, I want her to teach me from scratch. Back to basics since my foundation ain't exactly strong in the first place. But...pai seh le!!! That's why I rarely ask questions and stuff in tutorials. Cause I'm a slow learner and need like lots of time to absorb and master a certain new thing unlike my fellow fast-learning classmates. So, I'm scared to ask questions in class because I may slow down the pace of the class. That's why I just sit quietly and be dumb. Probably the cause of my downfall, I guess. (Not guess! It's confirmed!!!)
And because I sit next to Bao, Arien, Khin and Tam, they occasionally pose me questions about what the teacher explained or tutorial questions. Although I am flattered that they do not think me that dumb to ask me questions, I usually get tongue-tied as to what I should say. Hence, the easiest escape route : "I don't know". Even though I may know the answers at times, I'm just not confident in myself to give them a definite one. I mean, what if I teach them the wrong thing? Wouldn't it be worse? Sorry guys. I have inferiority complex.
But, then again, if I never ask, I may never improve, much less move forward. Tomorrow's consultation is just teh first baby step into being resilient.
Speaking of resilience, we just had that for ME lessons today. Go search for this guy Nick Vijucic (if I didn't spell his name wrongly) on Youtube. Really, truly makes us be thankful for what we have and to be resilient in our lives, come what may. There are 3 kinds of people: Quitters, Campers and Climbers.
Resilience is about overcoming adversities. I used to equate it to perseverence, but I just found out that these two words actually mean different things! (How silly of me to only recognize it now, some of you might think.) Perseverence is about trying to "tahan" the current situation and just wait it out (campers), but resilience is about overcoming obstacles (climbers). To move forward. Not just staying in a spot. Sometimes, we just got to let some things go and prioritize. I want to be a climber! I want to climb that mountain that weighs me down so much; to conquer it and say "I am the champion!" It would feel so good to find out that you have finally challenged and overcome your limits. To know that you can achieve something as ling as you set your mind to it.
Maybe I'm just saying it. Just to sound like so "keng" like that. Haha.. But I have to do this. In the name of self-fulfillment.
You should too.
